How It All Started
I remember the first time my heart was broken, I promised myself that I would never let anyone ever hurt me again and that was the start ofmy building walls around my heart. Needless to say by the time I was 40, I had a fortress around me! Looking back I don’t think I was really able to love anyone fully or freely because of my underlying fear of getting hurt. That would explain why I was either the first to break up with someone or to stick around in a relationship that was unhealthy for me just so I can avoid the inevitable hurt that would happen should the relationship end.
I hit Rock Bottom
I was blessed to have found myself a mentor when I was at my lowest point in my life. She gave me tools to help me break down all the barriers I had built around me and helped me deal with all my emotional baggage that I didn’t even know I had. Of course this process would not have happened if I was not open to it and once I was opened to having a serious make over in my life, the universe started to send me lots of messages to help me with my transformation. Somehow I stumbled across a website that recom
mended a book called Journey of Souls by Dr. Michael Newton. I have to say that book changed my life literally. Everything in that book resonated with me and the core message I got was that my higher soul had actually planned all this crap to happen to me just so I could wake up.
When I read that message, I literally got so mad at myself that I shook my fist up to the sky and said to myself, “when I die, I am going to come up there and beat the crap out of myself for putting myse
lf through this Hell!” And the second thing I did was I made a vow to myself that if this was the challenge I gave myself, that I was going to win and nothing was going to stop me. With new determination, I began my work on healing myself from all the emotional baggage I carried with me. I had to deal with all the judgments I held on to both from others and from myself as well as learning to become self aware so I can choose my “reaction” consciously instead of being swept off my feet emotionally.Trust me when I say there was a lot of crying that happened during this process and for once I was not worried about what other people thought of me when I was breaking down. I started to really learn to take care of myself first. During that time, I learned about setting boundaries with all those around me. I learned not do things that made me feel yucky. I also learned to accept myself for who I really was without judgement.
How Holistic Therapy and Energy Healing Helped me
When I started this process, my body was riddled with Rheumatoid Arthritis. I had to be on some serious drugs to control my symptoms. My first set of drugs was called triple therapy. It was a combination of an anti-cancer drug, an anti-malaria drug and a
Crohn’s disease drug. After awhile, my body started to reject this cocktail and I was switched to a different type of drug which they call a biologic. I had to inject myself in the stomach weekly. After awhile those drugs effectiveness started to wear off so the doctor had me on a different biologic where I have to go for an IV infusion for an hour every month. The drugs did suppress most of my symptoms but I would get flare ups regularly on different joints which I just learned to live with and accepted it as part of my life. Since starting my emotional house cleaning two years ago, I can tell you that I feel pretty much pain free and cured. I no longer identify myself as having a disease and I see myself as healthy and happy. And if I do get the odd flare ups which happen almost … never, I use the tools that are available to me to figure out what is causing the flare up, acknowledge it and transform it.
Not only did my dealing with emotional issues and limiting beliefs healed me from a deliberating disease, I was also able to heal my heart. I found my true self during my healing process and I made a vow to never again live in fear. That I should live life to the fullest and enjoy whatever the universe has in store for me by staying always in peace, joy and love.
Peace and Love,